Why us? Why now?

One of the biggest questions that I faced after Laney’s accident was, “Why us? Why now?” Our family had been through so many hard trials already. Health issues, extended unemployment, having a disabled child.

Things were finally looking up for us. We were finally getting to where we could see the light at the end of the tunnel. Then we lost Laney.

I kept asking myself,”Why us?” I mentioned this to Wade(my husband) and his response stunned me, “Why NOT us? Maybe Heavenly Father knew we could handle it, where someone else couldn’t.”  What he said really made me think about how all of the struggles and hardships we had faced had led us to this point. Where each thing we had to go through was a little harder than the last. That each of those trials made us stronger. Strong enough to handle the hardest thing we would hopefully go through. The loss of a child.

Am I handling it? Sometimes.I am good at pretending. So when you ask me how I am doing and I say, “Hanging in there,” that is precisely what I am doing. Holding on. Just barely.

He has promised us that He won’t give us more than we can handle. But I have learned that it is not what WE think we can handle, but how much HE knows we can handle.