Someone asked me one time how we were making it through such a difficult time. I told them that we try to look for the blessings that we receive every single day. And they are there. We have seen them, and know we will continue to see them as long as we stay close to the Spirit and allow ourselves to feel of Heavenly Father’s love for us.
I got woken up this morning by one of those blessings. It was one of those that makes you know that our loved ones are around us. Continuing to help us and bless our lives. It didn’t happen to me, but to one of my girls. And I will forever be grateful for a Heavenly Father who knows us by name and cares about us each individually.
One of my daughters has been very sick, unable to eat and very nauseous. We have been baffled and so have the doctors. So we have been at a loss as to what to do. Until this morning. Heavenly Father let us know that there was a specific thing that was causing the problem. And the Spirit tells me that it is true.
Such a great way to start the day. Knowing that if we stay close to the Spirit, He will indeed help us to see the blessings. I know He gives them to us. Everyday. And I will keep looking for them.
I got a text the other morning from my husband about what sounded good for dinner. He wanted stuffed meatballs. It did sound good. I haven’t made them in a while. So on the way home from work, I got thinking about what I needed to pick up at the store in order to make them. And then it hit me. Stuffed meatballs have STUFFING in them. Just the thought of stuffing sent tears to my eyes and down my face. Laney LOVED stuffing. We always had to keep some in the house for her so she could have it for a snack or if she didn’t like what I made for dinner.
Once I got the stuffed meatballs in the oven, I ran up to the cemetery to take up the beautiful fall arrangement that I wanted to put by her headstone. And it hit me like a ton of bricks when I saw that someone had tucked a white handkerchief into the vase on her headstone.
Last Sunday, we went to the Brigham City temple dedication. We had white handkerchiefs that we took with us. Someone had left theirs at the cemetery. I was completely lost when I found it on her headstone. I sat there and cried while thinking about how much Laney would have loved being there with us. Oh, I know that she WAS with us, but I would have loved to see her face and her joy at the temple she had loved so much was dedicated. I love that whoever left that handkerchief knew how much the temple meant to Laney and to our family. Simply amazing. I love the people in our lives. Thank you for remembering Laney. And us.
This been a week of fun, emotion, and excitement. My girls have been practicing for weeks on participating in the Cultural Celebration for the Brigham City temple dedication. They were able to perform it last night. And it was amazing. I am very proud of them for the time they spent (especially the VERY early mornings) and the effort they put into it. It was so sweet and reverent to watch all 4,000 youth immediately quiet down and stand when the attending General Authorizes came in.
For my birthday this week, Wade took me to see the musical Little Women. I had seen the movie years ago, and knew the gist of it, but had completely forgotten that one of the sisters dies. Most of the second act was dealing with the loss of Beth. Which made me cry. All through the second act of the musical. They sang a song where the mom (Marme) sang to Jo about carrying on. That we have to carry on in our life. We have to hope and still live life. I think I cried hardest then.
Wade thought he blew it by taking me on a date and making me cry. But it was ok…because he was crying, too. When life becomes more than you think you can bear…carry on! Carry on.