The 13th of every month is especially hard for us. Today is definitely one of those days when I have to tell myself that I can do it. I can make it through today. But today, I am also wondering how in the world I have made it this long and kept myself together. And then I remember, that it is because I have put my trust in Him. And I know I can keep going.
I miss Laney terribly. I love her just as much. I see her in so many things that I do. In so many things that are around me. While painting the mud room a few weeks ago, I started crying because she was supposed to do it with me. Her room is on the main floor, and we leave the door open. Because she is still a part of our lives. I hate to see the door closed. I like the reminder that she is still here, really. Thank goodness she left so many pictures for us to remember how much she really loved her life.
No matter what trials we may be facing, it may seem insurmountable to us. It could be illness, job loss, stress, or a host of other factors that are making today hard. It is so important to remember that if we can just make it through today, tomorrow will always be there. And it just might be better.
I remember when Wade and I were both unemployed at the same time for over a year and a half. I was very discouraged and couldn’t see that things would improve. I am a worrier, to put it mildly. I worry over things I cannot control. I worry over things I can, too. So as we were going through this rough patch, I was expressing my stress to Wade. His response to me was, ” Don’t worry. Heavenly Father has taken care of us so far. I am sure He will continue to take care of us.”
So I started taking life one day at a time, knowing that if I could just make it through today, tomorrow might be better. Or it might not. But I knew that everything would be ok. And so far, it is working!
Life isn’t always easy, but if we learn to take it one day at a time, we will find that we made it. That when we put our trust in Him, we cannot fail.
How can I feel uplifted, inspired, and encouraged? I will admit that some days are really difficult to get myself together and keep moving forward. But surrounding myself with amazing people helps.
There are people in my life that really care about me and my family. They uplift and inspire us. They encourage us. Sometimes everyday. Some of these people are the ones who were important to Laney. They have taken us under their wings and haven’t forgotten about us. Whether it is a message through Facebook, a simple text message to let us know they are still thinking about us, or just stopping by, they have been a balm of Gilead for us.
In recent weeks, Laney’s friends have gone to the temple with me, sent me text messages and just shown up to say hi. I cannot tell you what it means to me. And to my family. They are helping in a way that they aren’t even aware of. And we love them all.
Jens’ dad makes Ally and Addisyn’s day when he waves to them from the school bus he drives. He has no idea what he does for them. Until now. And Jens. I cannot tell you what that man means to us. I know I have mentioned it before, but just seeing his face and giving him a hug helps each one of us. Him included, I think.
Yesterday, Ally and I were out for a scooter ride and stopped by Jens’ house. I don’t know if we let him get a word in, but just seeing him made us smile. Partly because we know he loves Laney as much as we do. But mostly because we love him, too.