Sometimes, listening to different types of music helps me feel like someone else out there gets it. Oh, I know we aren’t the only ones who have lost a child. But I still wonder how people who write songs always seem to know how to put exactly how I sometimes feel into words. One of the songs that I have been listening to lately is by Miranda Lambert. It’s called Over You. It just says so much of what I feel at the moment.
Laney loved music. She could quote you lyrics from songs you probably have never heard. I still find it hard to listen to some of the songs she loved because they are just too hard to hear. One day, it will get easier, though. I have no doubt.
Sometimes, this is exactly how I feel. Like I have been in the middle of a storm being beaten by the wind. It isn’t always easy to stand strong in the storm. The wind doesn’t blow me away because I have faith. That is what makes me strong. That is my anchor. And I will hold to that as I keep finding my way through this journey.
One thing that Laney was really good at was standing out. Whether it was being named to the region all defensive team in basketball, or placing in the discus at state track after only having done it for three weeks, she stood out. She excelled in so many different areas. But my favorite area where she stood out was in her character.
She was a happy person and tended to make others happy, too. She encouraged people to do things they probably wouldn’t have done. Don’t worry, it was all good stuff. But with Laney, she stood out because she stood up. She stood up for her little brother when he was being picked on. She stood up for many people that she barely knew. But most importantly, she stood up for what she believed.
One always knew where they stood with Laney. There was no peer pressure for her. She told it how it was and didn’t waiver. She knew what she believed and was very passionate about it. She was always like that. Even from a young age. And the sweet part is…so are her sisters. So I get to see that part of Laney that I truly admired in my other kids, too. It actually makes me look forward to tomorrow.