Today marks 11 months since losing Laney. How in the world did we make it to this point? Make it this far when all along we have felt like we couldn’t go another minute? I look back and remember it like it was yesterday. But it also seems like it has gone so fast. I like fast. It gets us closer to being with her again. I am so amazed when I realize how much Heavenly Father has helped us make it one day at a time until we have come as far as we have.
I am not looking forward to the next anniversary date. The one year mark. I know I will be a mess. I am already a mess. But I know that there are people around us who won’t forget. And we won’t forget them either. How did we get here? One step. One minute. One day at a time. Do I have the courage to make it through today? Absolutely. Because I can try again tomorrow.
I just realized something. I think I knew it all along, but it was like light bulb going off in my head. One of those times when you go, “AHHH…NOW I get it!” Here it is: being around Laney’s friends brings a kind of peace to us. Especially those friends that knew Laney and loved her, too.
I think that is why I love it when they come to the house, or see them at the store, or at the ball field. There is an automatic friendship that we now have with her friends. Running into one of them always brings a smile to my face. Maybe it’s because I know how much Laney loved them. Whatever the reason, I am so glad that when they see me or any of the family, they are excited to see us. They aren’t afraid to come visit. They know that we have that tie that now binds us all together. Laney.
How grateful I am that she had such good friends. That they know we still need them and that they aren’t afraid to talk about her. Thank you for helping us to find some of that peace. I hope it helps you find peace as well.
I have always enjoyed reading stories in the Ensign Magazine about people being prompted to action by the Spirit. I thought the stories were amazing. I One of those stories happened to me tonight.
It has been a hard summer for us for various reasons. One of which is dealing with the challenges facing my son. I knew that Heavenly Father was mindful of him because of his various struggles. But what just happened has truly made me understand how the Spirit works through other people. That if we are listening, He will send us to the aide of others. Like my retired neighbor just did when he knocked on my door.
He came asking for my son. He told me he didn’t know why he needed to talk to my son, just that the Spirit kept telling him he needed to go talk to Kaden. As I pulled my phone from my pocket to call Kaden, tears started streaming down my face as I told this man how much my son needed a friend. I thanked him for listening to the Spirit. Okay, I blubbered while thanking him. I hope he receives many extra blessings for acting on the prompting that my son needed him.
My neighbor taught me an important lesson tonight. Never put off a prompting. He is one of my heroes.